Finally everything had just ended... I think I will have a lot of things to blog... Just that I dun have the time :( Too many things left undone too.. Haiz. I might blog tmr hopefully..
Nite nite =D
pokeyz
11:08 PM
TIME! TIME!! TIME!!!
I need more TIME... I had promised to do up the profitability ratios by tonight so I will just do it later. Now I gt no choice but to list down what I need to settle since I will be having my long weekend starting from NOW!!!
First thing first as stated previously.
Profitability ratios (FA)
Teaching Materials (very easy de ^^)
Law Project (waiting for me to settle since I am a kan chiong person)
Tutorials (no time then dun do =X but will suffer during main exam)
NAPFA (18 Jan)
AP role-play (script writing??)
Law Mid-sem test (MCQs) to study (21 Jan)
How about PFP Project??? OMG!!! I dunno what to do leh :( Feels like outcasted PFP project. This whole month killing me like hell... Ytd when I was studying fa, my mind was clouded with other thoughts. I just cannot keep my mind clear. WHEN CAN I STOP THINKING??? Now I feel that my fa study for no much use. 100% not what I had expected and I seriously hate this paper.
I just went to bedok park to vent my anger just now... Haha. Feels so shiok but tiring. I feel so useless. Can't do things well esp at my last sem... Is TIME able to solve all my problems??? But most likely, YES!!! I strongly believe time is the best medicine to cure all wounds, but one have to make full use of it and manage it well ^^
Now this feeling feels so sucky inside me, I dunno whether is this stress or is there other things making me feel this way. I admit that I do think alot at times so I hereby say sorry for whatever things I had done wrong. I just hope things can go back to what they were in the first place.
And thanks ryan for spending your precious time to listen to my woes :) Sry for keep rejecting u for running for NAPFA. I seriously gt no mood to run. Wish u all the best getting silver/gold for your NAPFA.
pokeyz
5:41 PM
Ytd dunno why so emo... LOL. anyway 我想开了. haha. What for do we live in this world if we will feel sad all the way. So I planned to be happy no matter what happen until the day I die.
Today was a happy day :) discussed assertions and cleared up the doubts in AP report :) Hopefully what we think is correct. I dun wan die in AP pls :) cos it is an elective we had chosen and I will not regret any decisions I had made. SERIOUSLY NO POINT REGRETTING WHATEVER DECISION I HAD MADE, this will make me hate myself more =X
Mood swings like PFP or FA graph about the expansion phase or recessionary phase. When everything go into depression stage... It will confirm rise up to the recovery stage whereby we will feel happy. I totally agree with Mr Peter Ooi saying humans are emotional people. Once sad, one can be very sad. But once happy, one can be very happy too. I planning to keep having the happy stage and maintain it or increase it like the SMRT sales growth :) super shiok. kk back to AP Report :) yay AP AP AP!!!
pokeyz
8:36 PM
PFP test is finally over... It is actually not the hardest and I not very scared of pfp cos fa seems more theory based. Anyway one test down 3 more to go :(
I starting to get tired of everything... Do I have the choice??? NO!!! last time I might have the thinking that if I wan do well for my studies I can only depend on myself... But why does lots and lots of things keep adding inside my thinking???
I just tired of everything happened everyday... I wan to end this ASAP!!! Where had all my positive thinking went to??? I realised that not many ppl actually understand me. And it might take months to years just to understand me well. There is also no point trying to understand what I am thinking... And please dun put your own thinking onto me, I seriously hate it. Because whatever u all assume on how I am feeling/thinking is usually 80% wrong.
Maybe I should just keep quiet most of the time. I feel that sometimes I might hurt someone due to harsh words I said. maybe I just think too much. THINKING SUX!!! WHEN CAN I STOP THINKING??? need more music to calm me down :) soothing music. I think i going to find classical music ^^
pokeyz
6:39 PM
Ytd was a super fun day... almost whole day out with my family to SINGAPORE FLYER!!! :) But fun comes great stress =X haha.. Anyway, I need to set a dateline for anything I do from now onwards. If not, I dun think I will start doing any projects. I havn't done my parts on the various projects.
I just managed to finish my teaching materials for my this sat lesson. I think I would be enjoying teaching them. You will find that they are very small and cute ^^ Haha.. some tend to be very quiet but I rmb this particular student clearly. I ask him to read out the qns or ans any qns, he will STAND UP and ans them :)
Next, I should go do my AP Tut now. After that, editing of AP report :( haha then tmr night study pfp. I calculated 2 marks loss = 1% gone. Super stress rite? but overall 20 marks only la. Then law must start doing le. Then meet up for FA on friday??? haha.
That allan explain to me how stress he will be this week. But true la. He tmr AP presentation then wed pfp test then friday AP report submission. He just gt one more thing more than me... TP OPEN HOUSE on thur, fri and sat =X Luckily, I nv help out. kk back to my work ^^
pokeyz
8:04 PM
